Lately I have been thinking about that, I was taking a shower and I was thinking of those depressed kids, who cut them selves during showers, then I think why, then I think of deaths then I thought about loosing a parent, then my mother, I cried-almost cried just thinking of never talking to her, she can respond, just I can't handle that, I know it sounds selfish but I hope I die before my wife, I would completely die if my wife died before me