I have watched enough people die that I will tell you that unless it is a controlled hospital death were they passed drugged up and never wake up they can have a few brief seconds to see their fate. I have seen them raise their arms, smile and reach toward heaven and seen pure fear. One went out screaming about being on fire.
Still, I am not here to preach, it's not my calling, my job, or in my skill set. Enjoy your life it sounds like this is the best you will get.