Haha, we're on the same page, I decided a while ago if she wont eat a double cheeseburger and fries she's not for me, a few extra pounds is normal and anorexia is not sexy. I read a story a while ago about fashion models living on cotton balls soaked with olive oil to help them not feel hungry while starving themselves to death for that skeletor figure.
My main problem these days is "the girl next door" which is a fantasy in theory but not all it's cracked up to be in reality. I think education is sexy, not pill popping escapes from reality, which is rooted in things I wont get into here. I told her we have to be sober together or we cant be together, and I want her to go to school and get a degree I have been putting my foot down more and more on that and as of right now she's looking into student loans, grants and fall quarter so we'll see.
But I am of an age I told her if it dont work out with you Im done, I've only got so many working years left and Im gonna get very selfish and start focusing on myself, my bank account and my eventual retirement, and I will not feel guilty when her path ends her as a 20 dollar crack w**re because I tried and I was not gonna let her drag me down with her.
A friend of mine told me a few years ago that drowning people will grab ahold of whatever they can and eventually take you down with them so it's best to just let them drown, I knew what he was trying to say, it was cold truth, and I'm starting to see his point, so I am getting more and more it's my way or the highway, there will be no in between on it.