Therefore it follows that "he" knows what arguments you will find compelling and what mental gymnastics you are capable of to ignore any arguments to the contrary and the way you'll neatly make everything fit into your worldview, excusing and ignoring anything that doesn't. He knows how you'll move the targets to accommodate your beliefs, how you'll excuse the most horrific behaviors by him in his book. He knows how you'll excuse murder, rape, torture, ignoring the pleas of innocent people, killing those who aren't in the right tribe, abortion (“ripping up” the pregnant wives of your enemies), or enslaving people and then beating them within an inch of their lives.
Doubting your “salvation” or your faith is evidence that your mind is fighting back against the ridiculous concept that an inter dimensional being actually exists and cares about your individual life or any human life for that matter. I probably can't convince you of anything stated above because of the very fact that you are your "god".
No, the "personal relationship" you have with your god/gods/deity is ... let's face it ... just a genuine, deep-seated, heartfelt, and active relationship with yourself, with YOUR own ego. There is no god. There is no deity. There is no magical place in the sky called heaven where everything is perfect and you sing to your god 24/7/365, nor is there any place of eternal torture that's inflicted by your "god of love" for an infinite amount of time because of finite “sins” committed by those who failed to believe in an invisible entity that refused to manifest himself to those people in a meaningful, verifiable way. Again, infinite punishment for finite offenses … steal a pen from work and suffer for all eternity. How can anyone call that love?
After spending the five decades of my life as one of those staunch, apologetic, argumentative believers, I have become convinced that all religions and other supernatural beliefs are cultural phenomena of a purely human making as science slowly dismantles all those beliefs. The old "god of the gaps" phenomenon gets more and more silly as each gap in our knowledge and understanding is filled with scientific discovery and explanations that actually make sense. "Faith" is no longer required to explain the common cold, comets, viruses, eclipses, birth defects, pregnancy, death, disease, mental disorders, chance, dreams, even those "tingly" intuitions that you attribute to your invisible, non-existent deity.