I grew up in Canada, so I had 20 years of the academy, the media, and the political class telling me that communism was the only choice moving forward into the future. When I read an old rush book I picked up at a used book store my goal was to read it and refute everything in it to make myself a better communist. The problem is that when I read it, I could not refute any of it, it all made sense. I didn't change my life, but that spark stayed with me and eventually burned down my old life.
Have you ever read or listened to Rush, outside of out of context clips played on establishment leftist sources.