Girl of rays. Please listen to me. Dont do it. Ur username is girl of rays because you are a ray of sunshine. You are all of our friends and I dont think anything is worth losing your live over. I saw an image once that said an arabic proverb. If one throws themself into an ocean, they will still fight for survival because they dont want to kill themsleves, rather something thats inside them. This world is balanced, each person is here for a reason. Everyone becomes a story, so be one of courage instead of missed chances. Be an inspiration to others who are scared of their lives. Be brave and face your life instead of taking it. Dont give up everything because you are scared. Think about yourself, and other people as well. Your parents, your family, your friends, teachers, doctors, and anyone who was ever touched by you. How would you feel if you saw them grieving you seconds after you take your life. I had a young girl who I was friends with. She was the sunniest person you could ever meet. Everyone loved her, and despite having a really rough life she survived and because a source of light for others. Unfortunately there was a fire, and she did not survive... She never knew who she affected, who she changed because of meeting them. But when she was gone, it was like the whole world felt it and cried. So dont make people grieve if you have the choice. Dont leave your family because you are scared. Anything you are scared about can only make you stronger. Make the right choice. Find help, and whenever you need, talk to people. Find someone who you can talk to and they can help. I know you have a unique situation, but there are others out there like you with schizophrenia. They need help as well. Dont do it, and help inspire others to survive their troubles. Find a way through and give speeches on how you did it. Make you challenges into a lesson for others. Help others the way you needed help. Please dont do it. Stay for me, ur friends, your family, and yourself.