Hey bud, what your parents do has nothing to do with your actions, suicide is NOT the answer. We all have our faults, and we all fail in life at some point, but ending your life is a sad way to try and correct what happened, and in this case it's not even you that failed. Dont project the sins of someone else, even your parents, onto yourself, it's not your fault. My grandfather committed suicide, I was about 6 or 7 at the time. It still haunts me to this day when I think about it. If you start thinking about that please think about others in your life that will be affected by that decision and imagine what they will go through afterwards. Seek help, talk to someone, your life is precious and not to be wasted. I'm sorry you're going through this, I'm sure it's terrible to see your parents struggle. I'm praying for you.