I didn't know she was the cheater, even though it was obvious. I was being gullible.
I felt like I had to do it just because she asked, and I know I'm horrible and that doesn't excuse my actions and it never will, but I can't go back and change it no matter how much I want to.
I know what I did, but I never did it to be pedophilic, and I regret it nonetheless.
I can't excuse my actions, and I know nobody will forgive me, but I need to make it clear I would go back in time and just delete discord after Ray asked me if I could.