I wasn't thinking. I keep forgetting I'm not a kid anymore. I forgot msmg doesn't just magically grow up with me either. I thought I could get away with whatever and that growing up would let me explore a new genre of art but I just idk I don't know what I was thinking. I'm going about this all in the worst way possible. I'm going to talk to my therapist about this on Monday. I thought about turning myself into the police too. What I'm doing isn't okay and I should have stopped way earlier.