Do you know how often someone in society tells me I need to change away from straight? Never. Just because you tune out the population that claims to have moral fiber from explaining simple consepts to you doesn't make you an expert on your own feelings. I know that every day you wake up feeling like crap and are depressed that you cannot accept yourself the way you are and you feel bad that you do not surrender yourself to a life that can be seen as flawless in all aspects because even for normal people it hurts to try and you think things that hurt exist because of dangerous aspects but you are wrong. The schools you have been to have told you that danger is bad. And now you are a danger to yourself. That is evidence of mental illness. Your holding onto a dying message and the message you publish you are one day going to regret deeply. Stop it and get help.