Translated: My life is not bad enough here to start over somewhere else.
Little reminder: "Ah yes I will leave my family and my hometown to go to a admittedly good place that I don't speak the language of, not to mention the cost" ~you.
You are the one making excuses, when every immigrant be it male, female, child or adult chose the risk and left everything behind to go into the unknown with hope.
Be honest about what you want. Not to me, to yourself. Then chose. No wrong answers.