Nah you got it right, that is who I am 💀
I'm not the sack of shit I was back then, but granted I never was this monster people painted me out to be in the first place
More like a very mentally ill child/teen with dumb opinions, who probably shouldn't have had internet access, very little social awareness, and a little too much of an audience at all times
I've made horrible mistakes which I understand people not forgiving me for but they weren't exactly.. intentional.
The most known stream "incident" that happened i was either late 12 maybe early 13 if my memory is correct, as i made msmg when I was 12 and I'm fairly certain it happened that same year, mainly because I was actively being groomed [as I was a victim of Maze] and wasnt able to figure out that doxxing threats weren't very serious [Cayde6 threatened to doxx me if I didn't]
Not many people actually were there to witness it anyway, I'd be suprised if there are more than 2 people who were in the stream back then that still are, let alone online for it. It happened at night.
Also the groomer allegations against me for the incident were crazy. No, I was not Maze's evil henchperson, that's a crazy amount of power to assume anybody that has an underdeveloped brain has 😭
Should've known better, didn't, apologized for it a ton, some people forgave and some didn't. Which is completely reasonable. Regardless of the context, it was likely traumatic for the people who were there.
The whole I don-t believe in love and people who do are w**res thing was because I was genuinely heartbroken and also because like I was kinda stupid and actually believed that
Extreme right wing propaganda for years led me to that point [you probably know the type, andrew tate level incel misogynistic bullshit I was spoon-fed for years]
Teenagers, especially those with even a small amount brain damage, let alone with added neurodevelopmental delay, are extremely susceptible to propaganda.
Overall really edgy, really dumb, very 2016 im so emo slitting my wrists waaa I hate life situation.
The "posting cum" shit genuinely just didn't happen
It was meant to be ragebait, but it kinda failed as nobody really cared as msmg was full of worse issues at the time, but when it was brought back up was years later when I already had forgotten it. It was Ogx conditioner btw.
