i have been feeling really, really tired today, and that pang of dizziness i got yesterday didn't help. sure, im depressed and stuff, but this suicide thing keeps really haunting my mind (its got nothing to do with you, ultimo). i've just really had enough in this year on imgflip. all the hatred, the hurt, the wars, the fights, the arguments, the stress, the.. everything. so people can really understand how i feel every time i say im depressed, these are what are always on my mind, and i mean always, even in the happiest moments, if i ever had any:
"wtf are you doing with your life?" "youve ruined your life. you have nothing left to live for" "your family is not proud of you, theyre just living with you because that's what they have left, your body and fake presence" "you failed God" "you failed your parents" "you dont even take care of yourself anymore, look at you, you havent showered in three months" "go make your f**king breakfast for god's sake" "i guess imgflip will help" "i want to tear this guy apart and sell his organs on the black market" "why are you getting mad over pixels on the internet?" "youre just so sensitive and weak, being kind only makes it worse" "i guess torturing and harassing a bit of chatbots will help" "stop remembering that f**king embarrassing moment" "your sleep schedule is worse than your life" "bro go sleep its 6 am" "i feel like im going to faint" "how am i going to survive the next year of school" "oh here comes another panic attack" "stop begging for attention" "i really dont feel like doing that" "your future is nothing, it's blank, you don't even study anymore" "wake up, computer, sleep, repeat" "i dont feel like eating anything" "school is really not worth it anymore at this point" "open the damn notebook and read a word" "stop fussing over this meme" "just go kill yourself"
its 3 am right now, and i got hit by some sort of "life flash" like you're just rethinking all of your life choices and your future and past and present in a single millisecond, except for me that millisecond felt like 2 hours. i just stared at the lock screen of my computer, thinking like "is imgflip really worth it?" ive read a lot about other users who felt a lot, lot better after leaving this website. swampy, the comics stream owner, has told me he heard that cheems (an imgflip og i think) felt happier after leaving imgflip. after some war between aub and msmg, i've already got addicted to this website. and when aub died, i joined understream.