hi. i'm leaving for good. or at least until things change, which, lets be honest. that isnt going to happen any time soon. this place is obviously not what it used to be. so uh. i think i want to structure this like somebody in the old msmg might have. i am well aware of how corny it is to write whole ass heartfelt announcements when you leave the site. its certainly quite sad to care about things in a little corner of a dumbass meme website to that extent, and in most cases to feel even remotely upset or disappointed over somebody leaving it. but honestly? thats not what this place was to me. at least before. i dont care if its corny, unnecessary, ridiculous, or childish. (you dont even have to read all of this anyways). i want some kind of closure for my time spent here. because as much as i don't want to admit it, this place has greatly contributed to who i am as a person :/; first of all, i'm going to address the most apparent thing. my public image here has completely devolved. before i say anything else, YES. IT IS MY OWN FAULT. and honestly, no. i regret nothing. most of you know exactly what i'm talking about, that being a certain trend i started about a year ago, as well as a particular image i am... infamous for. i enjoyed doing what i did, and still do. and i ALSO liked the attention that i received. i can't deny that. (by the way, i'm not even the one who posted the image to msmg at first, it was somebody else lmao). the one thing i would like to state is that "femboy" is in no way a complete summary of my character or who i am. while a lot of you understand that and have been amazing friends, many more appreciate me simply for this, even though i think i've done quite well in ensuring that being feminine is not all there is to my personality. hence, my next justification for going through the effort to write all of this. if i am going to be remembered, i would rather it be for how i really acted as a person. for things like my ideas and questions. my interest in philosophy and unsolicited rants about the meaning of life. the hobbies i talk about like blacksmithing, coding, game development, writing stories. and ideally above all, just how i usually interacted with you guys. anyways, in my four or so years here a lot has happened. around when i really joined, my mental health was of course not the greatest (and still isn't :c); that long ago, this place was genuinely just a tight knit little community, and before it i never really had a good chance to build relationships with other people. it was addicting to feel like i belonged to something like that. its so unbelievably nice to be able to just let go and be borderline happy for a little while, and i really do miss it. and yeah. when i got addicted, i got addicted BAD. i stayed up all night talking to people on here. i stole peoples phones just to interact for a minute or two. at one point i revived a family member's old phone, and proceeded to spend ALL of my time in my room, day and night not getting out of bed. just talking. because thats all that mattered to me ;-;; but uhj i ended up getting grounded for half a year lmao. WHICH I NEEDED because that was the only reason my addiction ended. anyways, i was gone for a good while, but some people still remembered me. a number of people were fond of me to the extent that upon my absence they were actually disappointed, and that ofc was also new to me, but what has stuck with me is the fact that i made enough of an impact in a community i liked to be genuinely remembered. and THAT is essentially what this place used to be. even if its a stupid congregation of internet strangers in a random shitty meme website, some people mattered to each other. alright. its only fitting that i end things with the exact way it actually started. sorry for the abysmally long yap, im done with this bit. if you actually went through and read it all, thank you for listening. thanks to all of yall that made me feel welcome. i'm glad i could meet you, and what friends i made during my time here. hope you all lead great lives :D farewell.