I'll tell you this: I've never told anyone this in my nearly 2 years of being a strong member of the AAA.
I joined the AAA in late 2020, a bit less than 2 years ago. I think around November or December. About 6 or 7 months earlier than that, I was a weeb. I watched anime and liked it. It sickens me to think of myself that way, but that's past. I reformed and learned the truth. The point of me telling you this now is this: There is hope for you, as there was hope for me.