I need some help regarding a friend. A week ago, a friend of mine said that he didn’t care if he died. I was very concerned for him and reached out to the appropriate authorities. I believe he has gotten some help. However, one thing I should mention (and what I am concerned about) is the fact that this person happens to be a former enemy of mine. Several years ago, when I was desperately suicidal (though I’m doing better now), he made really ableist jokes regarding mental health/suicide. And even though I’m concerned for him, a part of me feels a kind of schadenfreude/dark joy because it feels like justice/karma for those jokes. I feel like I’m a bad person for having these thoughts, but I also can’t let go of them. What should I do?