I shall pray that you never have to watch a loved one,be it a mother,father aunt/uncle slowly fade.
not from a terminal disease,but just the slow grinding of time and entropy.
to watch them slowly lose the ability to wash themselves,feed themselves,to communicate,and look int otheir eyes and see them begging for relief,for peace,to just let them go.
I pray that you never see a friend,or maybe a lover/husband/wife attempt to process some trauma or horrific event...and fail.
choosing to self-medicate,with either pills,or booze or some other form of self destructive behavior.while you sit on the sidelines helpless.being forced to witness their slow suicide.watching them day in and day out struggle with a past they are unable to fully integrate into their life.their pain is so deep,so debilitating,they hide in their own self-imposed stupor.
and you get to mark time while watching them waste away.
I hope,on some level,you see the true courage behind a doctor going against everything in his/her nature...to be kind.
and while you may not understand it,that is exactly what it is:a kindness.
and I pray one day you will never be in a position to truly understand that on an intimate level.
I pray.