I dont know what happening but, listen kid, if ya start going down that road, everyone will start to see you as an annoying, bad, etc person, and there's no way to change that, trust me, don't go down that road, your not the best, your not better, skill isnt defined by how good it looks or how complicated it is, it's defined by how much you can communicate an emotion, sure, your drawings might be good, but, other drawings that are much simpler, comunicate an emotion that you will never be able to communicate