Fact is that's the worse thing you can be doing.
I am sorry for the loss of your mother. I wish I could find better words than that.
But for now, you have to do what's best for you.
Forcing yourself is not that.
Leave the site, but not permanently. Keep your profile and your meme history here where they belong and others can look at them. When you feel in the mood again, then those comfy shoes are all set to go,,,
- Just a suggestion. But please don't delete your meme history at least for the sake of us goofballs.