Maybe the psychologist wasn't the right one? It can happen. And just because it can take a long while to heal doesn't mean it won't heal at all. But it also can be that you yourself inside don't want to heal or change anything. Do you actually want to heal? I don't mean to be rude but there's some people who visit therapy but don't make any effort themselves which I don't jugde cause it's not my business. If you do want to heal you can maybe at least try to use some of my advices I named earlier. It can take a long while but it may will be better later on. You can even draw and paint your feelings and thoughts on paper and you don't need to be some kind of professional at drawing, not at all. For example after drawing my feelings and thoughts I feel more self-aware and peaceful. Maybe for you it could be a good way to release your hidden feelings and problems?
Ah, you just wrote a phrase that is used in my language when people want to say that they will do something bad with themselves or others.The "It's called luck and I've got none of it" phrase. English isn't my first language, my bad. I thought that maybe English-speaking people wrote like that too. Am sorry
