Oh! Also I saw your art on your page! You've really made progress! I'm really proud of you, it takes a lot of courage to put your art out there for the world. Um but also, I might not post here again, since my therapist tells me to kinda not speak to anybody anymore. Weird piece of advice, but apparently socialising hurts my brain lol. I also met a girl called Sara. She's amazing. I love her, lol. I'm pretty sure she loves me too. I've found the perfect way to confess- I took a polaroid of writing in snow saying 'I love you, Sara'. I'll give it to her in an envelope, along with a love letter. It's gonna be magical lol. Anyway, bye! Brin, you kinda taught me what real friendships and happinesses were, whether you wanted to or not, and because of that, I'm really getting professional help. Also the other kids at school can suck a cock, I'm actually motivated to do work now, so I'm trying to compete with all of them academically lol.
Oh dude sorry I haven't checked this in months. I'm ok now, I planned suicide again, and now I'm in therapy. Idk I'll probably go onto all the tests again. But like those people think I'm dead, but maybe I should update them. Oh, and also I wanna retract my statements about this being a dick move. My therapist says I should. It ain't, I'd like to know if you're ok. So at least that's cleared up. I also turned 12 a few months ago! Also I got accepted into the Art club, though it's not on bc we're in a new lockdown in England. Sometimes I forget you're American lol.
Oh yeah, and don't worry. I'm not going to spiral into a depression like I normally do. I'm listening to vaporwave and evaluating the situation. I think I'll be fine. And besides, Edge Of Dawn seems to be a brilliant theme song for us, ahaha. I'm listening to something from the artist Telepath. It's pretty good. I'll just lose myself in the music and face my sadnesses, ahaha. Bye.
Heeey B. I just came here to say I've left the chat. I kinda did a dumb monolog, but basically Leila left around 5 hours ago. I'm leaving too, because I know staying would just be bad for everyone else. So, I just wanted to disclose something I've held onto for a while, and it wouldn't feel right to leave without saying it- Belle was you. The kid I had a crush on. Of course, I don't feel that way anymore. I've moved on. But just know I still love ya in the platonic sense. I guess anything I can't remember I've said is on the chat. Oh yeah, and I'm going to spend time with the world and its people around me, y'know? I'll wrestle with Sirius, paint PW's nails. Talk to Rachael. Go outside of my room. Not sleep all day. I'll be in a better place if I leave. And I'll still be on ATT when I can be, so.. yeah. Goodbye B, I hope you have a fit chick for a girlfriend when you grow up, ahaha! Antidisestablishmentarianism!
God I'm sorry for writing these messages, Brin. I was really stressed when I did and got a little stupid. I'm sorry if I ever made you feel bad. And Lily's okay! She lost all her memory, though. I teach her about the world every night. Like what the weather is, and temperature measurements. And stuff about KGS. And TWH. Just please know I'm fine with you leaving if you want to, since it's entirely your decision. This will be the last message I leave, since it was a dick move for me in the first place to put these here, but nobody blames themselves. At least, not anymore. See ya!
