Took lot longer than I admit

Hello? Ugh you might think this is creepy, but it was the only way I think I could talk. I think ya know me from the username, since it's my UPF Code, but I'm from the group chat. I'm sure L didn't mean to say that she didn't trust you. God this is creepy, isn't it? I just don't want to see everyone fall apart. I'm sure she just means she's skeptical of you! And I'm sure we can change her mind. Again, this is creepy as hell, but I sort of feel like I'll have to do this. I have a tendency to try to fix problems, see. But you don't have to do anything. This commont thing is just a disaster by now. Bye.

Okay golly gosh is this weird? I mean I'm sure L didn't mean to be like that. I'm not going to spam ya, I feel bad enough for this, but I do dumb things in a rush. You do have a choice, I just wanted to explain what L meant by her not trusting you. Gosh I'm sorry. This is weird

I know, I get it, Vi, right? Anyways, still... It hurt my feelings, and it made me worse. Ill probably come back on your guy's birthday months or something...

Heeey B. I just came here to say I've left the chat. I kinda did a dumb monolog, but basically Leila left around 5 hours ago. I'm leaving too, because I know staying would just be bad for everyone else. So, I just wanted to disclose something I've held onto for a while, and it wouldn't feel right to leave without saying it- Belle was you. The kid I had a crush on. Of course, I don't feel that way anymore. I've moved on. But just know I still love ya in the platonic sense. I guess anything I can't remember I've said is on the chat. Oh yeah, and I'm going to spend time with the world and its people around me, y'know? I'll wrestle with Sirius, paint PW's nails. Talk to Rachael. Go outside of my room. Not sleep all day. I'll be in a better place if I leave. And I'll still be on ATT when I can be, so.. yeah. Goodbye B, I hope you have a fit chick for a girlfriend when you grow up, ahaha! Antidisestablishmentarianism!

Vi... I want the best for you- and I don't want the group to all end because of me... I should have never left.... I hope everything goes well too... Also.... Never mind-

Oh yeah, and don't worry. I'm not going to spiral into a depression like I normally do. I'm listening to vaporwave and evaluating the situation. I think I'll be fine. And besides, Edge Of Dawn seems to be a brilliant theme song for us, ahaha. I'm listening to something from the artist Telepath. It's pretty good. I'll just lose myself in the music and face my sadnesses, ahaha. Bye.

Hope you find your love of your dreams too someday... Whether it's female, male, NB ECT, or not. I'm just shocked... To put it in words- to make it less awkward I'm not gonna talk again after I say this.... I kinda liked ya too... Oh, god... I hate saying emotion... Bye-

I just wanna say goodbye to everyone knowing I didn't....

Just PLEASE tell me, is Lily okay??

God I'm sorry for writing these messages, Brin. I was really stressed when I did and got a little stupid. I'm sorry if I ever made you feel bad. And Lily's okay! She lost all her memory, though. I teach her about the world every night. Like what the weather is, and temperature measurements. And stuff about KGS. And TWH. Just please know I'm fine with you leaving if you want to, since it's entirely your decision. This will be the last message I leave, since it was a dick move for me in the first place to put these here, but nobody blames themselves. At least, not anymore. See ya!

please, please, please let me know if youre okay... you havent been on AllTheTests in a while, nor replied to these and I- I don't know how else to know you're okay

Oh dude sorry I haven't checked this in months. I'm ok now, I planned suicide again, and now I'm in therapy. Idk I'll probably go onto all the tests again. But like those people think I'm dead, but maybe I should update them. Oh, and also I wanna retract my statements about this being a dick move. My therapist says I should. It ain't, I'd like to know if you're ok. So at least that's cleared up. I also turned 12 a few months ago! Also I got accepted into the Art club, though it's not on bc we're in a new lockdown in England. Sometimes I forget you're American lol.

Oh! Also I saw your art on your page! You've really made progress! I'm really proud of you, it takes a lot of courage to put your art out there for the world. Um but also, I might not post here again, since my therapist tells me to kinda not speak to anybody anymore. Weird piece of advice, but apparently socialising hurts my brain lol. I also met a girl called Sara. She's amazing. I love her, lol. I'm pretty sure she loves me too. I've found the perfect way to confess- I took a polaroid of writing in snow saying 'I love you, Sara'. I'll give it to her in an envelope, along with a love letter. It's gonna be magical lol. Anyway, bye! Brin, you kinda taught me what real friendships and happinesses were, whether you wanted to or not, and because of that, I'm really getting professional help. Also the other kids at school can suck a cock, I'm actually motivated to do work now, so I'm trying to compete with all of them academically lol.

Vi? If you're reading this, which I doubt so... I'm writing this to say-

Everything is getting somewhat better in my life. My mom and siblings are moving away to get away from our dad. Although we're moving pretty far... To where I won't be able to see my friends... At least I won't be my mom hurting. That's what matters to me.

Thank you so much for being my friend... I honestly don't know where I would be without you guys.