she took the rest of the 200 to pay for my shoes, and she said I was never getting the phone back, and I explained that I would be a social outcast, and she said she didn't care, so I'm too much of a pussy to cut myself as an effect from not being able to socialize outside of school and the depression from it, so ima pretend I'm getting bullied at school for being broke until she gives me the phone, I'm also trying to figure out how to not be able to show my location on life360 (my mom tracks my location on that app) so I could sneak the phone to my dad's house and reset all security things my mom could've put so only she can access it, also btw she deleted tiktok, and Snapchat bc she said I wasn't allowed to have them, but she deleted twitch for no f**king reason, and she probably looked through my photos bc she called me stupid basically bc she said I do not need to look at more dumb shit and make me more dumber, and she said a bunch of shit about me not knowing social cues in terms of texting) (kinda true in the past, as I did send my friends stuff even though the chat was dead) but keep in mind I talk to them more in real life then in texting, and btw i explained to my crush everything about me thinking a spammed her, and that's why she didn't respond, she didn't even know) I had some weird theory why I tended to ask so many girls out in 8th grade, I had so many problems with my mom and she said I hate you many times, and I felt as if I needed another woman to replace the love, but i know it's just hormones, final plan: instead of cutting myself with knives to get my phone back (social lonlieness depression symptom) I will pretend as if I was being bullied at school for being the only kid without a phone, while really I'm bonding closer and closer with my crush and talkin to my homies and then I will probably score with her