I worried about the Spinel drama when it didn't really affect me. I was worried when I shouldn't have been.
That may be because I want to take others' tasks and want to do them myself. And I'm also a pacifist.
This all meant that I wanted to end this enemy-like relationship MYSELF. I didn't want to move on from this, because I didn't want to leave this unsolved. But I think I must now. This doesn't really affect me now.
I think I can now be in peace and finally enjoy the presence of this stream and System.