You're welcome for the advice. Well, if you're trying to learn from yourself and those around you and that's where it gets you. Maybe that needs to change. Because you seem very susceptible to basically everything. Remember there was the other gf, then your Vegas Fiasco, all were drinking related, even before then. Then you stalk someone on this platform because again you were drinking. Now add to that, you smoking weed. Which I know is legal in some places, but still. You seem to not be able to control yourself, maybe seek help. You don't want to waste your life away. Remember when you were happy about your promotion. Focus on that.
Sometimes when people make a change, you also have to change the people you surround yourself with. Get strong, get healthy. Believe in yourself.
Okay, all in one here. Class is in session: The song is Wanted and
Jon Bongiovi is his birth given name = Bon Jovi, (they did the band name to emulate Van Halen, which really was two words.) He,Jon is blonde, Richie Sambora is in the band; however, not blonde.
Sebastian Bach from the era, not Bon Jovi, but Skid Row.
Jamie Campbell-Bower, is blonde and he is not from that era.
Be well cowboy.