I can't unsee the truth. I see truth everywhere. I see nothing. If I killed myself nothing would change. There's no meaning, cause nothing exists, not even the meanings. You say I added the meaning in those words? No, you did, you hallucinated and reacted in a way your brain is told you to react. You're not real as I am, I am talking with no one and the conversation is nothing. Everething is a hallucination, and hallucinations are nothing. It's okay if you don't realize what I mean. It's good that you found a meaning and live with God, have a good life. But I know, I know, I will always know.