Perfectly symmetric art and vent

My whole life has been a f**king hell
Since almost the beginning
Since I was 5 to be most precise
I was always the center of all the jokes and bad conversation
Since I was 5
Everyone were joking about me
Hating on me and stuff
My life at hom was good either
Beaten up by my dad with a belt (that have a lion bronze head on it)

Kindergarten:
Everyone was laughing at me

1st to 5th Grade: (I did 2 different elementary school but in both I was bullied and laughed at)
Disliked by everyone
And somes ppl were friends with me just out of pity
(I understood it later back then)

6th grade:
Woah finally getting friends
No that was fast
I started to get bullied by a group of 6-7 guys

7th grade:
Same as 6th but I went to a new niddle school due to moving out
So it made me lost my first ever best friend and my gf

7th grade (new):
A new school
Ppl seems nice--
Nuh uh
I instant started to get targeted by the bullies
I even got used by them to not get them punished

I even got harrased by a math teacher....

8th Grade:
Threatened like shit...same as 7th but worse

9th grade: neutral, still bullied but not that much
But.....
My stupid alcoholic smoker step-dad lost his driver license because he deunk before taking us to school
Results
I haven't been to school since 3 years
I lost all my irl friends
I still have contact with like...4 of them?

But my life is just a massive hell...

And now...
My family see me liek shit and defende the others
This step-dad always try to find a way to yell at me or causing arguments

My little brother begin a massive asshole and thinking ge's superior
And keep doing stupid beatbox and weird sounds
sometimes he moan like a woman
Why?
Because this f**king step-dad also listen to music were u can hear a woman moan
And always make sex jokes saying it's funny
And when the whole family have an argue with him
"I hate him"
"He should die"
"Get out of my house"
Then 2-3 days later it's like nothing happened
I'm getting sick of this

I'm getting more and more depressed day by days

Also a lot of extremely close friends hurted, abandoned or backstabbed me
Sometimes for absolutely no reason the abandoned me + blocked

The hole in my heart is just getting deeper and deeper and my emotions lesd present

I already have big difficulties to understand humans feelings
Or sarcasm
Or playing along...

oh so i just have to act depressed and retarted to mimic you

And to be simple

I'm the punching bag of life

Since 13 years I'm stuck in this loop of pain and suffer
I can't get out of it

Shit are getting worse in my life

I'm close to the breakout point
......
I... don't want this to happens again....I don't want to hurt someone like I did that day again..

i thought i was the universe's punching bag but holy shit you have it way worse than i ever could have had it
real life's a bitch unfortunately :/
i can't really say that much else because i (50% voluntarily and 50% involuntarily) removed most feelings of empathy from myself... i wasn't abused or bullied but i simply have... experience. experience, that (even if not completely) demonstrate that humans are garbage. idiotic monkeys that only care about politics, NSFW content, and attention. and i have to be one of them. i can't be a superior animal like a cat or a dolphin or some alien on a planet far away.
while every human may be unique there's no denything that there's also quite a lot of things that all people share, regardless of context.

i'm not gonna go blasting motivational BS, because if it doesn't work on me then chances are that it unfortunately won't work on you either, but who knows...
all i'll say is, i hope things will get better, man

Thanks...ig?

Shadow, I'm here for you. Incase you feel like talking about it and so, just send a message to me, I'm always around to help.

I read your vent and I completely understand.

Oh ... okay

I hope life becomes better for you in the future, the past may have left its scars, but I hope the way of the future gets much better.

If you say so..
Like idk
I've been waiting for so long lol

what day?

?

you said 'that day'

Oh..yeah

care to explain

It's uhm...

Little correction

I never finished 9th grad due to taht shit
So I don't know how it look like after 9th grade

Oh my God ur the person that commented on my Twitter. So I won't be able to draw your OC this summer but definitely when school starts, I'm sorry for the long ass wait like damn 😭

I don't even remember loo can I see a screenshot?

Nevermind I just checked

Jesus christ your life is a living hell. I seriously hope your life gets better because no one should have to go through any of this. I wish you the best of luck in and life and hope things turn around and get better

Thanks but things are just turning worse and worse anyway

Dang, I'm sorry man :(

Well, life.

Were you uh

Homeschooled???

Only for 3-4 months

Then the inscription didn't worked anymore for idk reason

so you uh

never got education past 9th grade

Yep
Only 3-4 months and that's all

I'm sorry to hear all that man, you have it rough
I'm sure you can find happiness though, somewhere you feel like you can belong. Just because it hasn't happened yet doesn't mean it won't. Even if you have shitty luck, just know that you are worth no less than the next guy, and will always have a chance. It's quite simple, people around you are assholes. Not your fault, never will be unless you're being an asshole in the first place, which I doubt. Anyways you still got people like me who will at least give a bit of a shit, even if it's not irl

Yes..

.

What?

Idk

Ok

I really hope your situation Improves and maybe you can get child services or smthn idk how America works

*France

My bad

Anything you can do to get out of this situation?

Nothing :/

Damn no government help?

Government is crap

The started to try to get more strict harassment (FINALLY)
After 4-5 killed themselves

Damn bro

I'm here if you need to vent

Hello

No

No
Stfu
Thanks

You were better before
Now u're just weird af