ME WHEN I REMEMBER THAT MY ENTIRE RELIGION HAS BEEN SYSTEMATICALLY PERSECUTED OUT OF EXISTENCE, WITH ALMOST ALL TEMPLES, LITERATURE AND TRACES OF EXISTENCE EXCEPT A*GUSTINE'S WORK DESTROYED TO THE POINT WHERE WE ONLY HAVE TEN FOLLOWERS AND DON'T EVEN HAVE ENOUGH MONEY TO DO ANYTHING WITH AND RISK ALIENATION FROM SOCIETY IF WE MAKE OUR BELIEFS PUBLIC DUE TO THE FACT THAT THEY ARE EXOTIC