Alcohol hits you hard concentrate on not dying

To clarify, I wasn't looking for those things here. I was just here to make memes, but even that's not a thing anymore.

I never had anyone to help establish my life with, so I'm basically stuck here in life feeling alone as the rest of the world goes on without me. Nearly everyone and everything I've known is settling down, moving on and dropping out. I'm unable to do so. I feel I haven't even made ten percent of the journey they have and I feel like it's too late to establish my life as I don't have the opportunity to settle down with anyone and make a happy life, not even friends.

Spending nearly every waking moment lonely, i'm too extroverted to be able to handle it. No amount of distractions are able to carry me anymore when that's all I've had to rely on. I've even tried various forms of medicating, which can't sustain me anymore either.

I just feel too alone and have zero direction moving forward anymore because I want a reason to, and that reason hasn't come from myself and only from myself for nearly 29 years of my life.

I'm tired of being miserable, but I can't find happiness alone anymore.

I've wanted to kill myself years ago from the exile and rejection, but God stepped in and said "no," but I don't know what else He wants me to do. I pray and my life feels like it's getting worse. All I ever wanted was peace in my life and to have people close to share it with. Unfortunately now, I feel hopeless.

Hey bro, hold on. Life can be rough as hell but there's always something new to explore.
I'm not a therapist, but I've often talk to people who really felt bad about their life, and one has a case quite similar to you : hopeless, in the misery, used to have alot of friends but is alone now.
Hold on. Your life isn't over yet.
If there's something I've learned it's that a situation can turn good as easily as it can turn bad.
Keep hoping. Even if it seems impossible. Even if nothing seems to go better.
Keep hoping.
At least for me.

I know I'm just a random guy on the internet but I wish you the best luck and I really want things to get better for you.
I'll let you on on your journey, but please, never give up hope.

Man, I’m sorry about that. Don’t give up though, there’s always time to turn your life around, and I’m sure you have a lot to live for. We all have those times, but you can get through this.