It's worth mentioning that growing up suck ass and middle school years are the literal worst time to be alive. So, pretty much everyone is in the same shitty boat, which means you're at least all alone together. It also means things get less shitty after middle school, at least in terms of the awkward age and all the associated bs that comes with it. Talking with people helps a lot...if you're still functional enough for that. If not, the order of operations becomes MEDS (even just short term to get you stable enough for the other steps to be worth anything), THERAPY and SELF-CARE.
Check out the online therapists stream if you'd like to find people eager to listen and offer advice. It can be a little much but the people there are extremely supportive.
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