real. see comments. might be triggering, idk

So I've been here over a year now. Not long compared to others, but still quite a while now. I've made a lot of friends and (somehow) a boyfriend here. That's some good that can come out of this community.
Problem is, I put emphasis on "some".
MSMG is also racist, homophobic, ablist and many others besides. I hate seeing meme making fun of the autistic kids, because I am autistic. I hate the homophobic and transphobic memes, because some of my IRL (and online) friends are LGBT. And the racist memes don't affect me, but can still be hurtful.
But I laughed at them anyway. I laughed at them in order to fit in, worrying that if I spoke up, I'd be relentlessly trolled and teased. Maybe I'm wrong. I don't know.
Trouble is, this community is my escapism from real life, where I'm always bullied at school, having people chip away at me for now reason. Because I'm autistic, an easy target. Female, more sensitive. It sucks.
I used a ruler to scratch my wrist. Not so it'd bleed, but just to take out my frustration. Kinda like lowgrade self-harm. Anyway, I did that once a couple of months ago, and again today. It doesn't hurt, and idk why I did it, but yeah. My nails are also bitten down to the beds, and I bite the skin off my hands without knowing when I'm stressed; I stopped doing it, but I've started doing it again recently without realising. I also pick the tiny blisters that appear on my hands from having them constantly curled up. Seriously, my hands are a mess. Just like my mind.
Y'all probably think I'm deranged or something, and maybe I am right now. There's a lot of shit going on for me, both online and IRL. And my IRL friend group is just as racist and shit as MSMG, so I don't know where to turn for help.
I'm seriously debating leaving Imgflip. Like I said, I've made friends here, but I think it's done more harm to me than good. I think I'm already depressed, and this isn't helping.
So yeah, that's me. Sorry if it's too much.

Well I hope you get better, and ily

Thinking about leaving too

i was depressed a few months ago, i recovered but something's still wrong with me..
Also most of my humor is /j

I would leave.
Most people here don't deserve friends.
You'd be able to spend more time to work out your irl problems.

True

Gosh I feel bad for you now.

You don’t have to hide or pretend to fit in. Thats literally rediculous. I’ll still like you even if you dotn agree with MSMG’s lifestyle.

if you leave or not, I hope your life gets better. And i’ll be with you if you ever want to talk.

gardi we love you frfr no cap
i think you should follow your best interests
and if you ever need help or someone to rant to randomly im here
<3

Thanks sinthetic fr 🙂

no problem :) just remember youre important to most members of this dumbass stream

"most"?
I doubt it

ok well
13 percent of msmg <3

That sounds more accurate lmao

Yeah, oh well

if you do leave, then I guess I'll see you around.

typical cheez

And try to learn about a red button called "block"

And try to be a little nicer.
You're the kind of guy to say "skill issue" when someone's mom dies.

Hey, I'm fine with it. Cheez is my friend. I know what they're like

And you're the guy who won't shut the f**k up

Hey, why don't I use my classic argument tool?
I ain't used it in a while.

L

ok

Answer my question. Who's the one getting flamed up over a joke image?

ok

ong

a f**king heartless bastard

Now, say my name.

ignoramus

Stop starting drama bitch

Says you, dude.
You are THE drama starter.

Well, you were the one who responded to my comment, dumbass moron

Who's the retard here?

Try to be a little nicer to people.

Oh wow, you resorted from having actual insults to being a f**king npc.

ok

How f**king original

ok

If you say ok one more time, you are gay

ok

hope you get better soon

hey don't worry msmg isnt racist, or homophobic. we just like to poke fun at the bad side of lgbtq. And people who make fun of autistic people are talking about the other kind of autism, not the normal one.

also i have bad self harming habits too, like picking at my skin to the point where its completely red

also i might be autistic but its so low it doesnt even really make me on the spectrum and its only caused by a combination of adhd and depression

Yeah

c

You too?

wgar?

You got adhd?

Damn. Sorry.