You sound like you're going through what I went through. A war broke in my friend group and I lost 4 friends. Two of them were some of my closet friends. Things were said to me that hurt a lot. I've went from just being to stressed to being the secret depressed person in the friends group. Considering how things went last time we has a suicidal person in the friend group, I don't want my friends to know how I feel.
The best thing to do is not make the mistakes I made. Be calm, don't get aggressive. Think about how they feel. Make sure everyone sees how others think about their actions. Don't let anger take over. Sometimes just talking it out is the best thing you can do.
I'd just like to clarify I haven't seen the first part.
UPDATE ON MY ISSUE WITH MY BEST FRIEND; SHE IS IGNORING ME. SHE WON'T LOOK AT ME. SHE WON'T TALK TO ME. I'M PRETTY SURE THAT SHE IS TRYING TO AVOID ACKNOWLEDGING THAT I EXIST. MY OTHER FRIENDS ARE ALL CONCERNED. THEY KEEP ASKING IF THINGS GOT RESOLVED YET. IT'S SWEET OF THEM. BUT THE THING THAT HURTS THE MOST IS THE FACT THAT WE WERE ALL THIS CLOSE-KNIT FRIEND GROUP. BUT NOW I FEEL LIKE ME BEING AROUND IS BRINGING SOME TENSION. AND I KNOW THAT IF THIS CONTINUES ANY LONGER I'M GOING TO BREAK. I WILL LEAVE THE GROUP. BECAUSE I'M NOT GOING TO FORCE MY OTHER FRIENDS TO HAVE TO CHOOSE SIDES IN THIS WAR.
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