Damn. Well, this escalated quickly.
I'm really sorry that you feel this terrible of a way, @THERIAN-MINT; I know on a spiritual level how bad the dark feelings of being suicidal can be (I've had a bit of a history of mental and psycho-emotional trials-&-tribulations myself - it ain't pretty).
I know that there really isn't much that I can do, considering that this is over the Internet and all that, but if you need anything to help feel better or to ease whatever psycho-emotional pain you're going through for the better, or just someone to talk to, I'm open to memechat if you need anything.
Try to stay strong and keep yourself safe, my therian furry-friend - this too (the suicidal feelings, that is), shall pass in due time :>