It's amazing to see that I was able to inspire you to be a mother to your children! Which made you happier; fulfilling your duties as a parent or starting fights with strangers on the internet?
It is my hope that you'll continue making better, more Christ-like choices in the future. Pride can be the most difficult sin to overcome, I'm reminded of Proverbs 16:9. God detests the prideful and until you can control your pride, you'll continue to hate yourself as well. Proverbs 16:9 also warns of punishment for the prideful. So if you can't end your sinful, unchristian ways for the sake of your family and God, consider doing it for yourself.
I find it interesting that you've chosen an online hobby that has you constantly striking up conversations with strange men. Your children suffer as a result of your internet addiction, and I'm sure your marriage does as well. A new year will be here soon, consider using this as an opportunity to rededicate yourself to the things that should matter the most to you: God and family.