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sooo- my friend- idk where he is and he said he was gonna commit and its been like 2 weeks or more idk. and no one has seen him and im terrified. the voices in my head are loud as hell and its like- i cant mfing breathe anymore. Im tired and hell and i have work due that i just- dont wanna do. Well i wanna do it but its like i have no energy to do it. And i dont wanna fail but its just- so mfing hard to do a n y t h i n g, and back to my friend, im trying to find any reports but i cant and its just stressful as hell. Otherwise, I feel like literally insane for no reason anymore, Its just so much for no reason andi hate it. I really just wanna stop all this shit but OF COURSE i cant so yeah.

And like-
I told my irl friend how i felt and they literally joked like:
emmoo girlrlll
but im actually serious and they were just laughing
They told their friend and they said: ohhh fatherless behavior. Your just faking it
But im not! And i honestly dont know who i am anymore or how i feel and i constantly feel paniced for no reason. And going on, from that my family gets mad at me when im all jumpy when they try to touch me and i dont even know why im like that. I told my mom a while ago and she scolded me telling me im not actually depressed and shit and that she went through worse as a kid. While i sit here with literally a like 6 voices in my head, a f**ked up mind and shit but yeah you have been through worse and im sorry but i just want your help.
Anyways. Yeah im done. If you actually read this im surprised but yeah.

parents doing that is unfortunately pretty normal, I'd check out support groups or finding helpful friends
about the suicidal one, I'm really sorry. I hope they're okay, and that they can find ppl who will help them with their struggles. We all need people; they help us overcome things that otherwise would be extremely difficult to get through. This is why feeling alone can be one of the worst feelings one can have.
Btw did u stress the point that you were serious? I've known some people before (and I may fall under this category myself) that like to turn most things into a joke but will try to help someone in a serious condition and would never hurt anyone intentionally.

I said that i was serious they both were just laughing like it was nothing. but thanks i hope my friend is okay too

Honestly, people shouldn't go off and be like, "Oh yeah your situation is hard but my problems are worse." It basically just promotes bad situations and makes them seem all good, when in fact it's the opposite. That sounds tough, and I hope that things get better for you.

Thank you
I really appreciate it

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I think that friend who joked about it shouldn’t be a friend
Real friends are always there for each other, even in tough times
But what your mother said to you…… I’m so sorry that you need to go through all of this crap
Hope your friend is alright, I’m praying with you……

Thank you so much i really appreciate it ^^