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Im dying inside but I dont know whats wrong

Ok this is weird to say cuz I've never opened up before but I need to cuz it's making me more depressed .I have social anxiety disorder and I'm struggling to make any friends the only friend I have is my dog . I cant meet new people when I do my heart beats fast and I start shaking I'm always afraid of what poeple might think or if they get a wrong impression abt me I never try reaching out to people cuz I'm afraid of being rejected idk why this is happening to me I've never felt this way when I was a kid. And its driving me mad cuz I feel lonely af and theres no one to talk to (excpet you. a person I barely know)

i feel you. i have really bad social anxiety as well. i understand the fear of rejection all too well. it's really scary n eats away at your self esteem (bold of me to say i had any). if you ever want to talk, you can hmu in memechat ok? just know i'm here for you <33

Thanks I'm glad you're here

:D

i have been crying almost everynight due to my brothers bullying me and it just gets worse as i get older

I will support you :)

I'm so sorry. If you ever need anything im here to listen so feel free to hmu ok?

This is really been the first time that I've come out and talked about this. Um, after my ex dumped me for no reason, she started telling all her friends not to hang out with me. Then she ignored me and talked trash about behind my back nd to my face, even though I never did anything wrong. I began to feel isolated, and now she is being oddly nice to me, and talking to me, and it really sends my anxiety through the roof. Another boy in my class that I have known since elementary has been making fun of the way I dress and the length of my hair. He constantly makes fun of me and I don't know what I did wrong. Both of them hate me, and I don't know why. It has given me severe anxiety and depression.

I know exactly wtf you're talking about when you mentioned your ex. my ex girl did that same exact shit to me, so i know what you're going through. the bully part tho..i'm not sure. he seems like a complete asshole for making fun of your cloths and hair, its bullshit. you don't deserve that. if you ever want to talk more, im here and i hope you'll trust me enough to help you as much as i can

Well yeah f**k it my parents are getting a divorce which has given me a lot of anxiety and a little depression at random points during the day, probably because I'm staying with my mother who doesn't have enough to take care of me and my sibling and Christmas does NOT help we'll be wasting our money on random crap they'll never use and we don't even like but it's "rude" not to.

wow. i understand what your going through. divorce is hard for those going through it or for those who get the effects of it. my parents got a divorce when i was about 7 or so, so if you ever want to talk feel free to hmu in memechat ok?

2 months ago,I was beaten up by a bully who almost dislocated my jaw from one hit.Every night except 3 since has been a flashback of the swing,the torture about it reminds me I could have fought back but my weak a** just stood and watched as me and my friend were beaten and our money was taken.Another worse thing is that I weigh more and am bigger than him,not by age and grade though.

well i suggest you just go past that and focus on what happens now

Yeah,but they're still nightmares to me.But he stares at me with a death look,when I get back he will pay for those nightmares I can promise you that.my dad's side of the family always were big guys with rage blackouts,I didn't inherit that but my little sister did.She's 12.

aww thats so sad

What is sad?
I'm not driven by that stuff in a way.

Wait,are you being srcastic?

nope

Well alright then,thank you.

im so sorry that happened. you dont deserve that shit. the nightmares must be ass too. If you ever need anything hmu in memechat ok?

Okay,thank you.

no problem!

I want a hug and nobody will give me one :(

-hug- there!! i wish i could give you one in person tho :(