if you try to commit suicide and I'm gonna kill me just to choke you out in heaven
don't just don't ever even think about doing sh like this again
even tho I don't really know you like that, I personally value anyone's life, feelings, and health just as much as mine.
whether you get by it just barely, maybe with a few grazes, at least you'd have gotten through it.
so my advice to you, is to keep pushing on.