I needed to vent.

Hi Bun. It is very brave of you to admit this here. Seeing your post I almost feel that you have never intended your friends to get hurt, and when they did you were filled with remorse.

To me, a sexual Predator is one who has a problem and knowingly acts on his/her urges instantly or plan his/her attack/assault without doing anything to remedy or prevent it.

I trust that whatever factor(s), directly or circumstantially, that led or placed your friends in a position of getting hurt you have put a stop to it.

never hurt them... Everything I've done was consentual I just.. I'm afraid I will hurt someone or that they're disgusted by me... I've been called a predator multiple times by strangers....

I've seduced and coerced though... I'm trying to be better but I feel like my friends are disgusted by me. I mean I just want to not feel like some disgusting, gay, sinful, w**re.

Have you looked into sex addicts anonymous?

No ma'am

The act of seducing and coercing is probably the very thing that have led up to their getting hurt. The question you must ask yourself is, how. How hard and persistent were you in getting them to do want you wanted?

I was.. Pretty bad... Now I often worry I will never be forgiven or trusted by anyone. I was very persuasive

Bun.... only a monster does nothing to prevent him/herself from hurting people.

You are not that monster if you take steps to prevent that happening again.

The most important step to prevent future incidents like that is to stop feeding your lusts; not by sex but by entertaining them in your mind.

Often, sex addicts also uses pornography for gratification, but eventually for many... it is not enough. They must themselves do it, and this caused them to seek out physical gratification with another person.

Yeah...

I know that first hand...

I suggest that you get rid of anything around you, including what's in your computer that causes you to lust. There are softwares that you can download or buy that prevents you from going to pornographic sites and there are apps that you can download that involves cooperation between friends or fellow addicts. When downloaded, your friends will receive your online activities. If you for instance go to your favorite porn site, then your friends will know and can call you to help you get out of it.

There are also specific therapies that you can go to for sex addicts.

Thanks..

You're welcome, Bun.

What you've done here is courageous and of good character. Courageous because you did this where its visible to people here; and, of good character because you allow your guilt to drive you to asking for help.

Here is from PornHelp.org and it has tips and lists of apps you can use for yourself:

https://www.pornhelp.org/software--apps.html

Tysm!

You're welcome, Bun. :)

Oh my god

That’s not ok

Honestly- i feel like when i have sex irl i will get completely addicted, but yes, I am scared to have sex because i have been sexual assaulted and harassed. I have been taken advantage of and forced around on a males body without will, so i am very scared of receiving pleasure through the act of sex.

I feel some day in the very near future, i will have a lot more relation with this post. sorry this is a little off context-

Well I was coerced in elementary school and didn't know how bad it was