Not sure I did it right tbh. I'm so desperately hoping a medical miracle pulls through as they're not unheard of. I got over feeling silly and just did it (pray) put my all into it because my cat deserves the best and she's more important to me than anything. Never felt this for the humans I lost over the years to addiction/mental illness or my grandparents on both sides from old age, and my grief for her condition right now is so much more than the combined grief of all the aforementioned people I swear she's more important than my own life