Says the pathetic useful idiot, but actually yes like it or not.
You must either be illiterate, mentally ill or just subjectively selective on what you want reality to be or perhaps a combination of all three.
I'm willing to bet it's the latter.
*yawn*
Denial is always the first riposte of the mentally disturbed and deranged.
Realizing and admitting that will be your first step on the long, long twisting and turning road to recovery.