I know everyone hates to admit it but, I diagnose you with teenagitis.
If you haven't noticed, EVERYONE becomes anxious and depressed once they're not a kid anymore. that's not to say what you're feeling isn't real or justified but keep that in mind.
Burned out from the pandemic, screaming media, modified school and more? I'm sorry to day suicide isn't an option. And I know what you mean, just the other day I said "im not suicidal but if someone could just knock the air outta me and leave me unconscious/dead for a few hours, that'd be real freaking sweet." Make sure youre taking care of yourself and relieving stress properly. You've probably heard it 91,608 times before but its true!