I wanted to appear happy in front of everyone by trying hold back tears and hiding my thoughts; Because everyone likes to talk about COVID in front of me. Hearing the word or even seeing the word "COVID" is scaring me because ever since COVID had hit the US, it had me scared for my life. I'm afraid of dying and I'm also afraid to be alone. It's traumatizing. I'm sick of trying to hold back tears because it upsets me really bad. As I'm *sniff* writing this, don't let anyone know that I'm hurt deep down in my heart. I-I-I can't hold back anymore tears!!!!!! *starts crying*