Your only problem with big government is when they create social programs for poor people. When it comes to the military or the police, conservatives LOOOOOOOOOOVE big government. Only when government is used to help people is when conservatives get triggered.
To be clear, you have no idea what Marxism is. Welfare is not marxism.
And just to burst your bubble, countries with the highest economic freedom, social mobility, happiness, life expectancy, etc. all have high government spending.