I have felt depression looming for as long as I can remember. When I was about 8 or 9 years old I attempted talking with mother. Though it was in the dairy aisle of the grocery store, still it was my effort. I had zero understanding of what I felt or why it persisted. I told her I always felt bad for some reason, like I always wanted to cry. She replied that I just needed a good ass whooping. That was the end of that. I guess It's been going on for so many years that I have gotten used to it. Thank you for your prayers. That is always appreciated.
Depending on how you grew up, there can stigma about talking to a professional about how you're feeling. I know it might be hard to imagine but a professional can help. Have you ever shared your feelings with your primary doctor?
Yeah. I did make an effort on a few occasions. Get this... I was told that with out a Diagnosis that there was nothing that could be done to help me. I mean really. I did seek counseling also at one point and that also proved to be a farce. I'm one of those people who always end up with the worst doctor. It's like I'm a quack magnet or something.
I'm am so sorry to hear that. I've never heard of needing a diagnosis just to get some therapy. Prescription, yes but not just therapy. Maybe it's an insurance thing.
Then again, you make a good point about quacks. There are really good therapist out there and REALLY bad ones. The bigger problem is that you don't always know until after you've wasted time and money with them.
Please don't give up though. There is not much more important than your emotional well being but that is often the thing that is neglected the most.
The compounding thing about depression is that it keeps you from being motivated to resolve it. Please don't give up Nixie, you deserve healthy emotions.
Is there anything specific I can pray for you about? Do you have any questions of faith that I can help with?
Yeah, when I was siting there on that exam table telling the doctor all of this thinking this is how people get diagnosed, and she said that to me I felt like it was turning into a who's on first routine.
I find that meditation helps me a lot, also not staying isolated helps. Because as you may know, when you don't get interaction there is a 100% chance of going deeper into darkness. When I come in here and get laughing and meming with the community it often helps me feel a good bit better. I do not have friends out side of this website. I have a list of friends who aren't real friends at all on Facebook. But I never go there. That profile just sits idle.
I do tend to put myself last around here. Lately my trouble is I have a very strong suspicion that my husband is cheating. I have not confronted or brought it up to him. Mostly because I know my words fall on deaf ears. 100% of the time when I want to talk for any reason he does not listen and doesn't even acknowledge that I even spoke. He simply goes into talking about golf, or something about work, or whatever else. I am an invisible tool used to cook and clean and am generally ignored unless there is a need I may be able to meet. So that is what I am battling aside from the general depression. Thank you for asking, and for taking your time to talk with me here. It means a lot when someone shows that they care about the human inside.
I don't mind the mention or suggestion of our savior. While I can't say I walk a perfectly straight line, I am of the Christian Faith. I appreciate your talking with me openly and honestly. It's good to be able to vent and just talk.
Hey, Boma, forgive me for butting in, but I live in Fl, and it’s been beautiful here lately. And we still have a couple mos. before the rainy season starts... 😃👍
1 up, 3y,
I lived in Tampa, Clearwater, Tallahassee for most of my childhood. I know the weather well. My parents retired back to Florida and we go to visit them twice a year. I have one Uncle in Melbourne and my Brother in Law lives in Vero Beach so we get a round the state pretty well when we go. :)
I am pretty sure my husband is cheating. Once I became aware that he probably is, it's like everything in me just drained away. I am reaching for effort in life in general now. I am deciding what to do and how to do it, or whether I should do anything at all. Blegh.
5 ups, 3y,
I went through that when I was younger and deployed and my wife of the time was with a friend while I was out fighting for the country. Looking back on it now it was the best thing that ever happened to me. You will be better for it in the end. Everything that happens makes you stronger. You will survive it I promise and something better will come from it in the end.
That's terrible. My husband was in the service years ago. We weren't married while he was away, we were off and on again though. He always told me about his friends who went through that. I can imagine what a wrecking ball to the gut that must be to have that happen.
Thank you for the encouragement. I have no one in this life that I can talk to, so I truly appreciate your saying that.
5 ups, 3y,
I’m my wife’s third husband. Took her a while to agree to get married again (years!), but next year while be 20 years married. Don’t give up, but don’t get stuck either. (Not the greatest advice)
My 1st wife went off the deep end when we got the internet and met some really messed up people, one of which she met and had an affair with. It didn’t end well for her, or my family, and I said never again. I was given some advice and took it. I was not sure it would work but I knew it wouldn’t hurt anything if it didn’t. Best thing I ever did. Got a great new wife despite my skepticism. So take it day by day and work on healing yourself first. Prayers for you to find strength and confidence to face your future.
I read your comments.
You’re awesome, one of the reasons I stuck around in the first place was because great people like you shared comments on memes.
Too many great people taking a “break” but I’m sure it’s always something that can only benefit you, both in and out of this meme life 😊
Thanks! I take unintentional breaks. I get swept away in responsibility or memers block. But one thing is always true, if we (or at least me) can get in here and interact it always helps life the spirits. It's hard to stay at the lowest of lows when there is so much humor and fun and awesome people lifting you up. Imgflip has been the best online experience I could hope for.
I lost my meme groove! I couldn't make comments or memes because my brain wouldn't cooperate. Creative refusal! Glad to see you still here! I haven't been as active lately, but I'll be back around more!
Nixie, if you live in the Atlanta area, there's a doctor in Smyrna that i've seen and who is intelligent and i found him to be helpful (although i was seeing him for anxiety and stress rather than depression). let me know if you want his name ( :
I'm a bit north. Smyrna is around 2 hours from me . Mostly thanks to traffic! Maybe shoot me the Dr's name though. If I decide I want to try to seek help again it will be good to have someone good to call! I am notoriously good at choosing the worst doctors. It's like a curse!
Yeah. Sometimes we need to put on the brakes a little. I know I need to that when I sit down to do something and it feels like a chore. I hope you have things going better now! Feel free to vent if you need to!
Been reading some comments... Nixieknox, I have a seriously complex and frustrating mind, One that goes on shut down and a depression that i only conquer with hard drugs, I dont care if anyone judges they can fu*ck right off, They tell me i am selfish and dont care, stop being soft, sort yourself out blah blah fukin blah, I am a messed up cat you know, but one thing i do know... you are my favorite, you are funny, witty, clever and care when i show up, if you ever need to talk properly and cry and laugh then watsapp me on +447563 987 704... and whoever is reading this and wants the same then you do the same...... I LOVE NIXIEKNOX
My beautiful Nix I know i am an ocean away, If you are like me you don't really have anyone around you that truly understand your predicament, Talk to me Nix i absolutely guarantee you that i know what you are feeling... i promise! I have not been on this site since god knows when, Its fukin hard trying to be funny and interesting when life is squeezing the soul from you, I like you dont trust my girl and haven't for a few years now, I know its not healthy but.......
Me and you have flirted/laughed and memed on this account and the account before, I swear to god Nix i dont know what you look like or what physical bad habits you have, what i do know is that i would marry you in a minute, if your man is cheating then he is an absolute fool.... i love you too Nix and am really sorry for not being on here enough sweetheart, You are my only on this site especially now most of the good ones have gone..even Yaya :(.. Try getting WhatsApp app and hit me up properly girl, i mean it or suggest an app for me.... Flipp can be to public you know, Our souls belong Knoxie and i dont care WHO KNOWS IT
I always appreciate you, Neo. I know you struggle through it too. I had a lengthy absence myself for the same reasons. There are times I just don't have it in me to rise above it so it drags me down. I always think of you when you're gone, and pray that you are okay out there. I understand why you're not around much. But It's always a pleasure to see you again.
I never confronted the issues here at home. I think about it some days but then decide why bother. Maybe I don't even care. I switched the feelings off years ago. The more I live in an empty shell the less pain there is to bear. However ridiculous it may be, Avoidance is the flavor of the week. I'll check into whatsapp. I don't do all the social media sites. It's bedtime for me now. I'm dog tired after this day of running around. You'll be hearing from me.