You've gone sliiiiiiiiiiiightly past the moment mark like days ago,,,
Hey, there's a fella who's been missing almost 2000 years, however, you might want to read his work. Perhaps it might calm you down some and give you cause to stop acting like a dickhead. Name's Joshua, and he wasn't keen on antagonistic petty vindictive self loathing shitters.
Check him out, you might find the redemption you seek.
Just kidding, no you won't.