How do you gather what I'd rather? There is no "problem", brother, just definitions of sacrifice that differ from one another. And why hate on the underachievers that were the believers? Didn't the temporary martyr hand select his apostles knowing full well their intellectual defect? I ain't trying to be unkind, say you're blind, or change your mind. Just saying the story, while intense, is shady to me and makes no sense.