Creepy Condescending Wonka

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I hear SuidAkrA in my head right now... oh wait, that's because I'm listening to SuidAkrA... oh wait... where are my headphones? Anyways...

People don't know what it's like to be schizophrenic and not be able to have a moments rest to process your own thoughts... then also have to deal with the crowds of people booing, not to mention the assaults that come out of nowhere!

I spent nearly 3 months feeling like I was being punched in the face every 5 minutes, dealing with them making my life a show and constantly trying to kill me...

That sounds terrible, and I hope you are well now.

It's a life long condition, caused by an assault that happened about 6 years ago... schizophrenia doesn't even run in my family! Just get knocked in the head a few times and boom, scared for life...

Then the feeling of listening or blocking the voices and trying not to go into this imaginative world that doesn't exist...

Then trying to explain things to them when they think you know whats going on in there world...

As if i can see them or see what my imagination does in there world, yet they don't even explain anything that's going on...

Thats like trying to explain to a blind person what the sunset looks like but only saying words of things that a blind person could touch on the beach like (sand,water,trash can etc...)

It is simply not possible for me to see, touch, smell, or taste anything thats going on in their world!

But the creepy thing is if they can actually see me and my life is really just a show to them and when they hear me trying to explain things im just the crazy guy sitting on there couch that won't leave their house that they keep attacking and yet they still don't realize that I'm talking to them from the "show" aka "real life"... and they still don't get that thats were i really am, in real life talking to them...

And can be extremely exhausting....

yeah i know someone who has trouble with that, it's really awful.