I got diagnosed with HF autism at 35 because , shocker, still can’t get over those social issues and had no choice but to apply for disability, … And it took a caring girlfriend getting driven crazy to notice something was wrong. And unlike my parents and everyone else she didn’t assume I was on drugs(which I am familiar with as coping mechanism) or just an asshole which I am admittedly now sometimes ; life was a bitch, still is , so it’s hard not to be mad bitter when scared or frustrated. Could be different,better, but no one noticed b4 and I always knew something was wrong but I could never explain it, and after four or five shrinks several medications and no results… I just started avoiding people or pretending I was different. Took up theatre, that helped, but not anymore. It sucks way worse as an adult because I got to experience a lot that I don’t get to now and now I have lost almost everything I’ve ever owned at least six or seven times and since no one would let me live with them anymore, thank Heavens the govt., damn them, considers it real or I would just have to bite a bullet. Just because people seem fine to you doesn’t mean they are when you’re not around. I act as pleasant as I can around most ppl, in the head of something else entirely. it took a f**k ton of mind work and practice to be able to do that…. There isn’t really a point to this I was initially offended her but I’ll add a point, yeah it’s a thing. In the whole 30 minutes I spent typing this out I have been tapping my leg nonstop leaning in the same position and now my foot hurts