Yeees! Thank you!! I know you wrote this literally 10 years ago, but thank you!!
EVERY SINGLE time they play the canned message, they make the hold music cut out so that you think they're about to answer! Whoever decided that needs to be fired. Then fired at. With a cannon.
Hope I don't sound like an annoyingly strict adult here, but make sure to seek help outside the Internet, don't depend on people here to make you feel better. There's nothing wrong with asking for prayers and well-wishes here, just don't let it become your main source of validation. Make sure you talk to someone in person about your feelings, someone you know cares about you. Try to connect deeply with people around you in whatever ways feel right. And keep praying even if you can't feel God near, I'm not the best example of that, but keep trying!
And, I bet your family will understand a lot better than you think if you talk to them! Again, I'm not the best example of being open with my parents about everything, but it's important to keep trying. I'm an adult, but I often feel like a lost little kid in this world.
Anyway, I hope this comment doesn't feel condescending or make you feel worse about yourself; if it does, feel free to take it with a grain of salt. I'll pray for you right now to be comforted and strengthened, and to be guided by the Holy Ghost, whether you realize it or not.
