I am so, so sorry for your loss. It's true, people can be awful for no reason on the internet. But some people (aka you) are extremely nice, caring people, and that's always overlooked. The internet is a scary place, and there's no way to change that, but, I hope you have an amazing day. Also, if you don't want to reply to this, it's ok. I just hope that I could make you feel a tiny bit better :)
(sorry for the choppiness of this message)